For me this consideration is built into and around "the Lamb slain from the foundation of the world." A cosmic undergirding of all that is. A tapestry interwoven and inseparable from love.
Linked with this fundamental is the obvious corollary of the redemption and transformation of what was, into something completely different, much akin to the fable of the spinning of straw into gold.
Perhaps a mythic thread that penetrated into children's stories as the best ideas so often do.
But those beautiful and rewarding considerations don't necessarily always redeem the painful coming to terms with having been abused and then recovering from that pain. To start the process of accepting and confronting the damage done to the soul and spirit is often daunting and a weary process.
Many roadblocks seem to occur both from within and from without. To even begin to look at what happened so often involves sorting out the true assignment of fault. This is often discouraging because self blaming and shame and self-loathing is so often an integral part of that process and seem such an integral part of who we are until we gain the ability to see clearly. .
The defining moment of recovery I believe is when the anger and confusion and trauma starts to disappear into a realization that whatever happened, it sucked, it was wrong, it may have zapped out our chance of any thing like a normal childhood, but now we can gain from the experience and let the whole process be submerged in that amazing cosmic force of turning straw into gold.
What was intended for evil gets used to bring glory to God somehow in ways that actually we may never see or even understand.
I think that is the final part of a recovery. That gift of understanding that it wasn't all just a nightmare but something is being redeemed and transformed into some good, and often in someone else's life.
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